I don’t think it exist any more problematic thing than love, really, it never goes right and there’s so many outcomes.
Boys complain over being ”friend zoned” and girls complains about being ”single”, can’t the boys just tell the girl how he feels so he doesn’t end up being ”friend zoned”? And the girls shouldn’t just wait for the boys to make a move, they should try their best too!
So straighten up guys!
I had the same problem though in my first year when i studied the Humanistic course i had a guy in my class that i was very good friends with, i didn’t know if i liked him as just a friend or as something more at that time but that’s ahead of the story (yep, this is gonna be a long post ^^).
And my two other friends, Emma and Sebastian, always told me that this guy was in love with me and that i should let him know that i felt the same, but at that time i didn’t know if they was just fucking around with me since i’m so pathetically naive and gullible so i didn’t believe them, so i never told him anything.
But i did find it a little strange that he did anything i asked him for/about, and i found myself falling more in love with him, i was always laughing when i was with him and the other two and had a great time.
Then i got confessed to by a guy in my Japanese class, i told him that i wasn’t sure if i could see him more as a friend but he told me that we should at least try and that made me think about this ”friend zone”-thingy so i gave him a chance, we tried it out.
But in the end i broke up with him, for reasons i shouldn’t write out here so i’ll just leave it at that.
Anyway, the guy a liked had heard of me being together with this other guy and (note: at least this is what i think) didn’t talk to me anymore, Sebastian said that he was just being jealous and was being grumpy because of that.
I was devastated, i didn’t know what i was supposed to do anymore, i didn’t understand a thing.
Why didn’t he talk to me? Had i done something wrong to upset him? Didn’t he even want to be my friend anymore? Wasn’t he even willing to talk to me? To greet me in the hallway?
I complained a lot, i cried a lot, i couldn’t sleep anymore, i couldn’t eat nor could i concentrate on my studies.
I asked him on skype why he didn’t talk to me, i saw that he had seen my text but he didn’t answer, he ignored me in the hallways in school and turned away his face whenever i went by.
But since a certain incident occurred i didn’t dare to enter the classroom so in the end of my first year together with the three of them and in the Humanistic course, i changed to Children and recreation course.
I did no longer have time to be with them since our scheduled were too different and we got apart, i still went in the same Japanese class as Emma so i still see her twice a week if not in the dinner hall, i don’t see Sebastian as often though but it’s okay since we have contact through text messages and phone calls, Johan (the guy i liked :$) i didn’t see as much but nowadays we’re in the same Psychology classes and see each others twice a week.
One day, i decided to confess to him on the psychology class before he disappeared as soon as the bell rang as he usually does.
But after i had told him my feelings and so on, he just said ”Sorry, i don’t feel the same, bad luck” and there was no more to it.
I was sad after that short answer and my heart was aching (still is) and he quickly left when the bell rang after that.
Did he ever like/love me? Or did he never even have those feelings for me in the first place? Did my friends misunderstand something?
I don’t know, and i won’t probably ever find out either, even though there was so many times where it really seemed like he had feelings for me.
This was some week/s ago now and i’m trying to get over it, find a new love and maybe this time i’ll make it right and find a guy that likes me for who i am too 🙂
Tomorrow i’m gonna meet up with a classmate i haven’t seen in almost over two years (we wen’t in the same class in 8th and 9th grade) and i look forward to it since at that time he was a nice dude ^^
I hope he hasn’t changed too much, ‘cuz i know i sure haven’t changed a damned thing since that time unfortunately xD
And later some day in the week i’m gonna have a movie night with Kajetan, a boy from my japanese class i’m a little fond of ^//^
Now i’m gonna sleep, g’night everybody!
Hyunhyun ~ \(&o&)/